Part 34
Joey
I
sit in the stadium, holding my breath as they start calling the children whose
last names begin with “m”. I can’t believe this is actually happening. It seems
like just yesterday I was getting the call that Margie had a baby for us and
now my Aiden is graduating high school. And in the fall, he’ll be going to
college.
It
doesn’t feel right, knowing that my baby is going to be leaving for college
soon. I always knew this day was going to come, a looming black cloud that hung
over me for years. And now the day I was dreading is finally here.
And
yet, as I sit on a cold, metal bleacher next to Steve with Aiden sitting
somewhere down in the mass of students, I think maybe it won’t be so bad. As
much as I want Aiden to stay young forever, it is impossible to ignore the
excitement every time he mentions college. I know that he loves us, but he is
just so ready to move on and take that next step in his life. I wish I was that
ready. I know it’s time to let him go and that he isn’t really leaving us
forever.
Steve
is constantly telling me that everything will be alright. And I think he may be
right. I know there will be a lot of tears in the coming weeks. I can’t even
imagine what will happen when I have to take him to college. That might be a
day when I never stop crying. But I have to have faith that everything will be
okay. That this new phase of my life won’t turn out so bad.
“Aiden
Matheson-Rogers.”
I
stand up and start to clap, the tears already starting as the principal of
Aiden’s high school calls his name. I watch as my only son walks up on the
stage, a huge smile on his face as he shakes hands with the principal and
accepts his diploma. He turns and looks up at the crowd and, even though I know
he probably can’t see me in the mass of people, I feel like he is smiling just
for me.
Much
too soon, another name is called and Aiden walks off the stage.
“What
do you think of that,” Steve asks, as we sit down. “Our Aiden. A high school
graduate.”
“Yeah,”
I say, my thoughts still spinning.
Normally,
this is where Steve would say something reassuring, but I think he knows now is
not the time. Instead, he settles for leaning over and gently kissing my cheek.
As
the ceremony winds down, I try to tell myself that it will all be okay. That
Aiden will be fine. And Steve and I will grow old together just like we were
meant to. And even though there is still a big part of me that wishes I could
go backward in time, I try to find solace in the hope that it will all be fine.
After all, my son just graduated. And no matter what that means for the future,
it is something to celebrate.
And
that is part 34. Only one part left. So be sure to come back next week to see
what happens to Steve, Joey and Aiden!!
Awww happy graduation, Aiden! Very sweet post, Sophie.
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